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Posted on June 18, 2024--
No... I-I can't... I won't-
GAH! This Scourge of Doubt is insidious! How does it keep slipping past my defenses? Why does this Scourge get to me so much more than the others did? I feel like such a fool! This should be no different than any other Scourge battle!
I don't understand... What's wrong with me?
No matter how many times I tell myself that it's not me that's wrong, that the Scourge of Doubt is messing with my emotions, it - it doesn't feel true. Does that make any sense? I just keep thinking that there must be something off, some reason why I can't safeguard myself from these nagging Doubts. Isn't that, oh, I don't know, suspicious? Am I overthinking it?
But... What if I'm not overthinking it?
What if there is something fundamentally wrong with me, on some deeper level that I can’t describe? Like... oh, goodness, I don't know, like...
Like something's... missing?
I ought to be able to fend this Scourge off like all the rest... and yet... again and again, I waver, and I wonder... If... If there's some pattern I should be able to see, but can't - some calculation that won't resolve in my head - some reason why my mind has a hole big enough for Doubt to crawl in and nest there...
Am I just... not smart enough? Not strong enough? Not good enough?
Is this where I... fail?
Should I give up...?
No!
You can't give up so easily!
We won't give up on you!
There's no Doubt in our minds!
You are just as whole as any of us!
You're full of compassion, and love, and hope, and joy!
You are not weak for failing or making mistakes!
As you have guided us, so can we guide you!
Oh! Oh my goodness! My friends, my fellow Kith - thank you. You're right! I mustn't doubt myself. And even when I do, I can think of everyone who supports me, and I can believe in all of us, together. Thank you, Doubt's Xeleon Shred, Doubt's Spundone Shred, Doubt's Gondrawla Shred, Doubt's Koisonne Shred - thank you all. I needed the reminder...
It seems so much easier to push every last Doubt's Shred aside when I think of Nicholas waiting in his Headmaster's Office for me to come home safely. I can sense his support, even when we're so far apart - my steadfast Ally would never let me down. So I won't let him down!
All right! Let's do this!
To battle!
